Birthday party

CS: "Becca will you come to my bufday pah-ty?"

It's like freshman year of college all over again

Me: "Hey W, how are you?"
W: "Good, how are you?"
Me (surprised): "Good thanks!"
W: "No, I said WHO are you?"

Mean

CS: "You wuh at a gwave yahd yestuh-day? Is that way-uh you used to wuhk? You bay-weed dead bodies?"
Me: "No, I was visiting my grandparents. They're buried together."
CS: "Did you bwing them flowuhs?"
Me: "No, I didn't-"
CS: "Yo-uh MEAN! Ev-we-one knows yo-uh supposed to bwing flowuhs to whoevuh yo-ah visiting!"

I've almost perfected the art of selective listening

DR's brother: "Excuse me, what's your name?"
DR's grandma: "You know her name! It's Becca!"
DR's brother: "Oh right..."
DR's grandma: "She's the one you take pictures of with your camera as she's pulling out of the driveway."
DR's brother: "GRANDMA!!!"

It's funny because it's true

*Discussing bagels with MD*

MD: "My grandpa doesn't like cream cheese."
Me: "No? So what does he get on his bagels?"
MD: "He can't eat bagels!"
Me: "Why not?"
MD: "He has no teeth duh."
Me: "Oh, right."
MD: "But he eats steak."

No you're not

MD: "After we stop working together I'm going to come over to your house and we can hang out there!"

Spoke too soon

Me: "Ok M, I want you to have one meaningful conversation during group today."
MN: "I don't want to. I don't talk to people I don't know."
Me: "If that were true you wouldn't be talking to me!"
MN: Silence.

Holidays are hard :(

CS: "Becca, I don't need a thay-uh-pist anymo-ah. I stopped actin' out! So maybe we can only see each othah once a week now."
Me: "C, that's great! But I'm not your therapist. So we can still see each other and hang out."
CS: "No! Yo-ah my thay-uh-pist. And we don't weally know each othah that well. I want to be with my wegulah fwends. But we can hang out on othah days, not when yo-ah woh-king at Ba-uhd."

I know, it's hard to believe

MD: "Wait, you've seriously NEVER been married??"

Am I starting to show?

MD's grandpa: "Becca, how are you feeling?"
Me: "Oh a lot better, thanks. I have bronchitis but I'm feeling better."
MD's grandpa: "Oh, I thought it was because you were pregnant."
Me: "Um no. It's bronchitis..."

Gingerbread house making FAIL

*8 year old MD after discovering the gingerbread walls won't stick, as one is laying broken to pieces on the ground*

MD: "Well that really fucks my day up!"

Penguins vs turtles

CS: "Ohhh! An igloo. That's the ice bwick thing way-uh penguins oh-ah tuh-tles live wight?"

This is why I love my job

CS: "Becca, yo-uh my numbah fo-ah best fwend."
Me: "Aw, C, I am?"
CS: "Yeah! My mom is numbah one, my dad is numbah two, Bwian is numbah fwee and yo-uh numbah fo-ah!"

Pull yourself together Rebecca. Do you really want to explain where babies come from??

CS: "My mom was the first one to meet me so she's my numbah one best fwend."
Me: "Aw, that's sweet."
CS: "Actually, the doctahs and nuh-suhs met me fust. They picked me out from the baby room and bwought me to my mom."
Me: "Well, no I think your mom met you first. Before the doctors and nurses even."
CS: "No! The doctahs and nuh-suhs met me fust."

Man, this guy...

BW: "You really need some Justin Bieber on your Ipod."

Now you have me second guessing myself...

Me: "MD, what should I make for dinner this weekend?"
MD: "For your husband?"
Me: "No."
MD: "For your boyfriend?"
Me: "No."
MD: "For your wife?"
Me: "No."
MD: "For your girlfriend?"
Me: "No."
MD: "Are you a lesbian?"
Me: "No."
MD: "Are you a boy that looks like a girl?"
Me: "No."
MD: "Are you sure you're not a lesbian?"

Better than wanting to run me over with it

CS: "I can't wait until I'm a teenag-uh."
Me: "Why's that?"
CS: "So I can dwive."
Me: "What kind of car do you want?"
CS: "A cool wed one! And I'll dwive you a-wound!"
Me: "Will I have to sit in the backseat like you do?"
CS: "Yeah! In a boost-uh seat like me too!"
Me: "It's a deal. In 10 years I expect you to be driving me around in your red car while I'm in a booster seat in the backseat."
CS: "Deal!"

Well then call him up

*Pushing MD on a swing*
MD: "My 98 year old grandfather pushes harder than you!"

Do... Not... Respond...

MD: "Wait, you're 25? You should have a kid by now. My mom was 16."

Trouble

*This conversation took place about a week before the one posted below...*

Me: "So what did you learn in your health class today?"
BW: "I learned what oriole sex is."
Me: "Oh you mean oral?"
BW: "Yeah, oral sex."

About to put my foot in my mouth

Me: "So what did you learn in your health class today B?"
BW: "It's kind of gross."
Me: "I'm sure I've heard it before."
BW: "You sure?"
Me: "Of course!"
BW: "We learned how two gay guys have sex. Did you know how they do it?"
Me: "I did yeah..."
BW: "And we learned how two girls have sex too."
Me: "Oh, well, everyone is different and there are lots..." (I was about to say there are lots of different ways to have sex and different people like different things. I don't think that would get through to a 12 year old. And it might raise some questions that I do not want to answer).

The definition of ADD?

TE: "Ok, pretend that our amusement park is getting robbed. You have to go out the back and we'll lock you in and go after the bad guys.
Me and SG: "Ok, so we just don't move?"
TE and MD: "Yeah!"

*Amusement park begins to get robbed as SG and I sit still and TE and MD run around*

TE: "Buckle your seatbelts we're about to take off!!"
Me: "In the amusement park?? I was unaware it turned into a spaceship."
MD: "Yeah! Buckle!"
SG: "Looks like TE is scaring away the robbers with a shotgun..."
TE: "There's only one jetpack, sorry!"

*TE jumps out of the amusement park spaceship with his jetpack. SG, MD and I are stranded without jetpacks.*

MD: "I found the last one, it was hiding!"
SG and Me: "What do we do? We don't know how to fly."
MD: "I guess you can use these parachutes. They're not very good or fast."
Me: "Ok, it looks like every man for themselves S..."

If I complained I would be a hypocrite

While buckling his seatbelt in my car...
CS: "Excuse me."
Me: "What?"
CS: "It might smell in here..."
Me: "C, did you fart??"
CS: *Smiles*

Happy December

It's been about a week since I last posted because the house I was dogsitting at only has dial up internet and I am far too impatient for that. Lucky for everyone out there because that means I have a couple of quality quotes from the kiddos to post. I have also decided to do one quote per post, for more effect :) Happy December!!

Point taken

MD: "S is taking me skiing this year!"
Me: "Yeah? Are you going downhill?"
MD: "I'm not going UPHILL Becca!"

Adorable

CS: "So, how's yo-ah day going so fah?"

Clearing things up

CS: "I stole a lollipop befo-uh."
Me: "You have? Did your mom find out?"
CS: "Well, I lied to huh fust but then she found out and I was gwounded."
Me: "I bet it taught you that actions have consequences right?"
CS: "Yeah. Did you know anotha word fo-uh thief is muh-duh-wuh? So I'm a muh-duh-wuh."
Me: "No, no C. Those are not the same thing. You are not a murderer."

And it's white MEN anyway

MD: "Did you know white girls can't jump?" (As she's jumping...)

I wonder if he knows all his fans call him that

MD: "Can you play Justin Beaver?"
Bowling Attendant: "Justin Beaver or Justin Bieber?"
MD: "Justin Beaver."

Turkey cupcakes

I know this isn't a quote but have you ever watched a child crack an egg while you are patiently trying to explain to them how to just get the egg whites into the bowl (after demonstrating)?

Picture this: a child of 7 years old taking a nice big brown egg out of the carton, watching you (me) crack the egg and add only the whites. He then proceeds to get close to the bowl and you think, ok, maybe he can! And he lifts the hand with the egg up and towards the bowl, closes his fist around the egg... and squeezes. Hard. Not only does he get the yolk and eggshells involved in the bowl, but he mostly missed the bowl. I'd say the majority of the cupcake making process involved a wet dishcloth cleaning up the 3 or 4 egg disasters.

Logic

CS: "You know my gwamuh?"
Me: "I do, yeah."
CS: "Huh last name is Whitehouse. Do you know why?"
Me: "Why?"
CS: "Because she wivs in a white house!.... O-ah maybe it's because she's welated to the pwesident. Because the pwesident lives in the White House!"

What what in the butt

(Talking to CS's mom, V, about having to cancel our appointment because CS was puking and had diarrhea)

V: "Yeah, he thinks it's really funny when he goes to the bathroom to pee and the pee comes out of his butt."
Me: "Hahaha, at least he's in good spirits over there!"


I'm sorry, my humor has not progressed past that of a 10 year old boy. Poop jokes will always be funny to me.

Knock knock

MD: "What did the donkey do when he went to bed?"
Me: "Fell asleep?"
MD: "Peed his pants!!!"

field trip

DR: "Next time can you take me to outer space?"
Me: "If you find the space ship, I'll drive you there D."

I will never win

MD: "A little too heavy on the makeup today, Becca."

That works

(Doing an advanced yoga pose)
S: "What should our safe word be?"
M: "Get OFF!"

droppin' names like it's hot

DR: "Do you know who sings this song?"
Me: "I think it's Timbaland."
DR: "Oh... I thought it was Jay-Z."
Me: "Do you like Jay-Z?"
DR: "Yeah. I went to see him when I was a baby."
Me: "You saw him in concert as a baby?"
DR: "No, I saw him. I went to his family members' funeral. We're related."
Me: "You're related to Jay-Z?"
DR: "Yeah, he's my cousin."

Picky

MD: "What are we doing today?"
Me: "We're going bowling!"
MD: "Bowling? I call it BORING."

Fiesty

Me: "Hi S, my name is Rebecca. It's nice to meet-"
SI: "Shut up, BITCH!!"

Ewww

DR's sister R: "D has a crush on Sooophie!"
DR: "Grandma! R is reading my diarrhea!"

Not everyone has the fever...

DR: "I HATE Justin Beaver!"

What about a mullet? I'd say that's more of a slow haircut.

CS: "Im as fast as a mowhawk!!"

Alphabet

CS: "What comes after 'L'?"
Me: "Sing the song."
CS: "H I J K L emeno P. P! P comes after L"

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(Listening to 'In Da Club' by 50 Cent)
RM: "What's bub?"
Me: "I have no idea..."

(Listening to 'My Humps' by Black Eyed Peas)
RM: "What's this song about?"
Me: "I have no idea..."

All about MD

MD: "Do I have red hair?"
Me: "No, it's dirty blonde."
MD: "GOOD! I would HATE to have red hair."
Me: "Hmmm..."

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While playing a game of tag (that I always lose)
MD: "Ohhhh!! You got POWNED!"

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MD: "Wake up in the morning feelin' like... gettin' dizzy..."

Such a whore

TE: "I wonder what Jurassic Park is rated... I think it's PG 3*... it is a whore movie."
BL and me: "A what??"
SG: "A horror movie."


*Yes, he did say PG 3

Just wait for puberty to hit

Yoga instructor: "Ok, now we're going to do partner stretches. This one you're going to grab your partner's hands-"
J: "We did this one last week! I did it with Becca. I'm not doing it with her again, her hands were sweaty! Ewwww."
Me: "Deal with it."

Yoga is not as peaceful as you might think

M: "I'm going to use yoga to scare bad guys away if they break into my house to steal my stuff."

Borrowed from a friend...

This post is from an experience my friend Mike (who's black) had while student teaching. The second grade class was learning about blood in science.

2nd grader: "Teacher, if we have white blood cells to help us get better from colds, does he [pointing at Mike] have black blood cells?"

Wouldn't that be great?

cs: "I know way-uh chocolate milk comes fwom."
Me: "Where?"
CS: "Chocolate cows."

What's the cutoff age?

Discussing how the server would find us at a restaurant...
MD: "They'll remember you because you're cute."

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MD: You're too old to have a boyfriend

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CF: "Where are my manners?! Would you like a french fry?"

I need to stop driving by horse barns

DR: "Ooo horsies! Can you take me horseback riding sometime?"
Me: "I'm allergic."

Fiyahhh

CS to firefighter: "Um, I have anotha question... it has to do with next Wednesday."
Firefighter: "Ok..."
CS: "Can Becca bah-woah yuh fiyah twuck so she can pick me up at school with it?"
Firefighter: "Yeah... no."
Me: "Thanks for asking anyway C!"

Probably illegal

D's sister: "Where are you taking D today?"
Me: "I'm taking him to the Humane Society which is similar to a pet shop."
D's sister: "Well I think next time you should take him to a baby shop because he loves babies."

Um...no.

MD: "Will you take me horseback riding?"

Please tell me that isn't code for anything

Me: "How was the school dance?"
BW: "I slowed danced with ______!"

Mom?

DR's friend to me: "Are you his mom?"
DR: "No, she's my big sister!"

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CS's friend about me: "Is she your mom?"

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Playground supervisor to CS: "No, you have to listen to your mom now!"
CS: "She's not my mom, she's my fwend!"

GWB all the way! Not.

MN: "Are you old enough to vote?"

New brother?

CS to Mrs. R: "Do you know that man with the be-uhd?"
Mrs. R: "Um, no I don't."
CS: "No you do! His be-uhd stops wight at his chin and he wuhks on the pway gwound aftuh school."
Mrs. R: "I'm sorry I don't know who he is."
CS: "Oh, well he is Becca's bwuthuh." CS turns to me: "Do you know him?"
Me: "Haha, no C, I don't know him."
CS: "Oh, well he's yuh bwuthuh."
Mrs. R: "Hahahahaha."

tan actually...

MD: "I bet I can guess what color your bra is."
Me: "What?"
MD: "I bet I can guess what color your bra is!"
Me: "M, that's inappropri---"
MD: "White!!"

Bad soda

CS: "Can you guess what I want to be when I gwoah up?"
B: "Um... a firefighter?"
CS: "No... but theyuh in the same bi-uh-ding."
B:"I give up."
CS: "Am-bwee-an-see-ers! That was so easy I can't believe you didn't we-mem-buh!"

Translation: Ambulance driver, or ambeelancier... :)

CS: "Do you know the bad soda that makes you mad?"
B: "Yes, I do."
CS: "I'm nevuh going to dwink the bad soda that makes you mad! Nevuh! Ah you?"
B: "No, never."

last day of camp

JM: "Becca, you are a refrigerator and I am a magnet."

*Shhhooop!*

...As he sticks his body onto mine for the next 5 minutes...

innocent minds

CS: "How old are you Becca?"
RT: "I'm 25."
CS: "Ok, so when I'm older I'm going to ride you all around. And my mom and my dad. I'm going to ride them too."

Me staring hard at Julia with question marks and exclamation points in my eyes.

JC: "He means on his motorcycle."
RT: "Ohh, CS, you're going to drive me around on your motorcycle when you're older?"
CS: "Yep! I'm going to ride you!"

mother f

i changed the living room around a bit. i'm getting restless with lauren not being here! and it's only day 2... we need to start cutting the cord though. anyway, i'm not entirely decided if i like it or not. but for now i'm keeping it because i got sweaty getting it like this. nothing new. but i think it feels more cozy, but it's possible that's how i want it to feel and not actually how it does feel.

i got kicked and threatened to be punched as well as being called a motherfucker today. welcome to the beginning of the work week...

i mean... maybe?

Another counselor and I were talking about cutting hair and donating it for Locks of Love when NB interrupts...

NB "Yeah, I know a lot of people that donate their hair to gardeners."
MC and RT: "You do? Why?"
NB: "Because they like to grow vegetables and stuff."

...Silence....

dogs

BK: "When I'm older I'm going to have a Sherman Shephard."
CS: "A Sherman Shephard huh?"
BK: "Yes, a Sherman Shephard."

yumm b.c.

why is it the older i get the longer my hangover is? and why does it start so late?? i'd prefer to just get it over with first thing in the morning. and it's almost 3:00 in the afternoon and i am sooo uncomfortable. haa i just realized i'm watching the hangover while being hungover. good chance i'll fall asleep.

gross

The next door neighbor's spider is getting BIGGER!!!! Maybe that's why I put off doing the dishes??

I swear it's muscle...

TM: "Your arm jiggles when I poke it."

Thanks TM, you really know how to make a girl feel special...

What does that even mean??

*After giving J a life jacket to wear for kayaking...

J: "They give my brother one of these to wear in his room. That way it won't splatter if he poops."

tgit

J: "I'm going to destroy all the toilets in the tri-state area!"

Red group tired me out today. I was told I was a dick ass while being kicked and hit. Twenty minutes later I am playing find the goggles with the same little boy in the lake. It's nice when people don't hold grudges. Still so far so good!

blog diarrhea

As I've started to read a couple of blogs regularly, I've noticed that most of them are a waste of time (including my own but I have only sent this site to about 5 friends just so they know what's going on in my life).

Most blogs are wordy just to be wordy. And to translate, it comes across as self indulgent. They write to think they are being listened to and people actually care. People don't care, and they will tune out if you don't keep it short - just me?

This blog is more my speed: http://dianameaker.tumblr.com/. Photos are few words and short sentences. I like. You're welcome... even though I know you don't care ;)

loving ittttt

C: "Did you know this banana was in a car crash?"


So many one liners all day long. I could do this forever just for the laughs.

quote of the day

At living skills summer camp day 1...

E: "My brother is married to my cat Peanut."
C: "Your cat's name is Peanut? Weird."
S: "THAT'S the weird part of that story?"

bending

is it possible for a straw to break or will it only crack?

da oh-shin

Off to Rhode Island in the morning for one very important reason!



And another smaller reason: http://www.newportfolkfest.net/

Going to the ocean, woooo!!!

R.I.

Today was such a perfect first day of a long weekend!! Went to the beach for a couple hours this morning for some quality time with my David Sedaris book, then off to get a manicure and pedicure. No crazy colors this time, not sure why but I wasn't feeling it. Guess I picked colors to make me look tan. I hope it works. I had such crazy dreams last night. I was supposed to share an office with the director of Howard Center and Anna Kelly. Sharing an office meant planning where my desk should go so the director wouldn't be able to see me on facebook. Which is kind of funny because I'm not on it much anymore because it's boring. All people getting engaged and married. Then I met up with my mom for lunch at Healthy Living where I actually got a salad, surprise! Then we went to buy me a tennis racket so we can play against each other. I'm so excited for that!! Then some furniture shopping which wasn't exciting and home to read my TCI manual for training on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I made a list for packing but haven't done it yet... I hate packing. I might just throw stuff in the car and hope for the best.

I just ate 5 Oreos. Now I feel sick.

Almost kickball time!

This is so fun! Not the sunglasses, I hate those. But the great leggings and the jacket!! Saturday afternoon errands around the city for sure. Or maybe to work... I want to touch this jacket, what is she wearing underneath or is that part on her stomach part of the jacket?

Alexander Wang


I like the structure of the chest and waist. I think probably different boots, ones to make more of a statement. At first I didn't think I liked the black but now I do. I would wear this to a quiet intimate French restaurant for an anniversary dinner.

Yohji Yamamoto



Short pants and high neck! And purple is my favorite color.

Celine



I love brown and tan and all shades of those colors. So I love this outfit and how comfortable and chic it looks. The boots going beneath the skirt is great! You don't see any leg so it's kind of a similar function as a pant, but more dressed up in a way. I would wear this to take a walk to grab some Pinkberry.

Salvatore Ferragamo

Twenty more minutessss

Ooo gold and silvery metallics! Posh Spice, this looks exactly like something you would wear. I love form fitting skirts that show off a woman's curves like this. She has a tiny tiny little waist and rounded hips. I think this is just gorgeous and I would wear it to a movie premiere. Although I can't honestly imagine sitting through a movie wearing this... or sitting at all. It's still pretty to look at.

Victoria Beckham


I love the mustard yellow peeking out from under the olive/army green coat. I still haven't latched on to the long skirt business but I think this look is understated (which obviously I'm a fan of) but still says I know what I'm doing. I would love to see Jessi in this outfit, walking to work (although now she's in Chicago, I can only picture her in NYC).

Fendi


Sheer sleeves and a little midriff. Because the dress is long though, I think it can afford to bare a little bit of skin. The outfit as is could be worn out to a fancy dinner in a tropical island but I think I would change the shoes, maybe a platform... or a rounded toe beige pump. Something to dress it up a bit and go to a benefit function.

The Row


WOW look at that red! And that scarf! The scarf reminds me so much of Sully. She has a HUUUUGE black one that rivals this version. I'm imagining this Little Red Riding Hood of 2010 meeting up with friends for a winter picnic in the park, drinking spiced cider and hot chocolate.

Jill Stuart


HERE is the double belt I was talking about!! I like them so high up on the waist. The skirt length is excellent, I would think without the jacket some high powered business executive would wear this. The deep V is too rique for me personally but I love the way it looks. What's with the elbow holes?

Michael Kors

40 more minutesss

This is so beautiful to me - the layers, the belt, the gloves and the red lips but my favorite part is the socks!! The length is perfect. I would wear this to the ballet.

Luisa Beccaria


Although I don't fully embrace the "match everything" trend, I do think this outfit is sleek and effortless. Just a casual Sunday, meeting up with friends for brunch.

Bottega Veneta


Shopping and a lunch date! Love the sheer tights and those shoes!!

Bottega Veneta



This is just fabulous. In my mind it is faux fur. I don't know if that is reality but I choose not to think about it. I can see this lady rocking this outfit in NYC in the middle of winter walking her dog in the West Village.

Burberry Prorsum



I'm trying to embrace more red in my life. It's hard when it's on my head (and face because of my cheeks)but I do accept that redheads can wear red. This is one of those outfits I would wear. I generally like corset/bustiers, I think they are very sexy and can be elegant. I also enjoy the belt... I think it's looped around her waist twice but it's not the first time I've seen the double belt and liked it. I would wear this to a Christmas party.

Nina Ricci

nooo!! i thought i had one more season to watch on demand but i can only save rescue me season 6. what am i going to do now?!

cf

Ha!! I love gay Harry in Mama Mia! And Colin Firth in real life.

purging

Why not make dinner for myself?! i like cooking and i have the time and it's fun!



i also decided after reading an article on about organizing your closet - thrilling, I know - to finally clean it out! the article suggests to take a piece of clothing out of your wardrobe every time you buy something new. and considering all the shopping i have done in the last year, i thought it was time.



so i filled a laundry basket full of clothes i don't want or wear anymore. i also have another shopping bag already in my car. the small bag in front of the laundry basket would be underwear that i am throwing out. i don't have any idea how i accumulated so much underwear, considering that the bag is half my underwear drawer. i wouldn't imagine that my victoria's secret credit card has anything to do with it...

but i feel better! lighter and cleaner. i still have work to do but it's a start.

street lights

these guys definitely make it easier to watch rescue me.




stupid and beautiful.



for as far fetched and out of left field as these couple of episodes were, with sean bursting into song, i actually liked it and cracked up every single time.



manly. yum.



i think it's because of his height and his asshole-ness. but tommy gavin is 100% sex in this show.

i'm actually not sure what i'm going to do when i'm finished with season 6 on netflix. as lauren can attest, i get slightly obsessed with netflix on demand. that's how i've watched the entire seasons of the office, 30 rock, arrested development (i think), weeds and now rescue me. that's a lot of tv without even having our tv hooked up. luckily for me, i've been keeping busy, which also means staying away from rescue me which is hard... especially with those gorgeous men. i know, denis leary right? well, watching the show will make you think he's so hot. such a badass. and an asshole which unfortunately i'm attracted to.

but yesterday i did 10 miles on the bike! and today i did 3 and then sprinted a mile. well, sprinted off and on.... but it still felt good. and then after i met up with jill and we went to wine down at drink which was fabulous. definitely a great new friend! she's just adorable, i love her.

toxic

#1 - I scored the first run of the kickball game today which oddly made me feel great. I am so super proud of myself!!

#2 - KKD is just as delicious as I remembered. I didn't get a rise and shiner because (I'm kind of embarrassed to admit it but I actually really dislike hash browns). So as delicious as an egg, cheese and hash brown sandwich sounds after multiple beverages... it actually doesn't cut it with me.

#3 - I pretty much am in love with my brother's college friends. They are all so fun and easy to get along with, it reminds me completely of my bestests.

#4 - Rachey and I were talking about going to Florida in the beginning of September and I'm getting SUPER excited about it!!!!! Especially because it's been a disgustingly long time since I've seen her. (Ok, I saw her in January but one on one time is different).

#5 - I'm trying so hard NOT to think about number 5, because #5 is really #1, #2, #3, and #4. And # 5, and # 6 and # 7 and # 8.... you get the idea. Basically living with a broken heart is quite hard to do. I'm attempting it but I don't exactly know if I'm succeeding. So many crazy thoughts inside my brain. If I had as much money as I wanted in the world I could at least keep myself totally occupied for as long as necessary. Too bad that's not the case and I have to listen to my thoughts for way longer than I should...

I'm going to try to post photos tomorrow. My friend Rache sent me a blog link that I'm somewhat obsessed with now. Kind of my inspiration even though I can't make dresses or clothes... You'll know what I mean the next time I post but now it's time for bed.

feeling a little unsure about things right now. well, just one thing of course. not on my end though... i'm still completely sure i have made the right decision, but i am getting a weird vibe. definitely could be my crazy brain going off again but it makes me worried. the "i love you" helped a bit. i'll have to wait at least another hour and a half to two hours...blah.

what's a virtue?

I'm working on being more patient. I'm getting pretty impatient with it.

live in the now

one day at a time. live in the now. i have to keep remembering that. do what it takes to make me happy.

R: Gay Sean saw my boobs this morning. I bet I ruined his day :)
L: Ha. Or made it. Maybe you turned him!
R: My boobs are not that fantastic, let's be real.

do i play the game or don't i? i want to call so bad just to talk, but i feel like if i do, i'm pressuring him. although i understand if that's what he thinks because 3 months ago that's what i thought. it's weird, i feel like i'm always making the first move... and by always i mean the past 3 months. it's hard to keep that up.

Game ball

My team voted unofficially that I should get the game ball (which of course we can't actually do, but still)... because I had 2 or 3 outs. Pretty sure it was two but just in case my vodka-infused haze is incorrect, I figured I'd write 3 just in case. Anyway my outs were pretty incredible. Plus I got on base once which was super exciting. Although I am still not a fan of baseball...yes, I know it's kickball but it's the same thing. I think my favorite part of today was before the game when me and Lauren sat on the rocks finishing my vodka and catching the last bit of sun while watching the rain move up the lake. Also after where we went swimming in the grossness that is Lake Champlain to cool off - you know - because I worked so hard in kickball. BUT... check this out!! I actually got injured. Even though I took a photo I haven't taken an up close look. It could be worse than I think but ch-ch-check it out!

Yep!

This article is exactly how I feel! I know a lot of other people like this too... Some people make friends so easily, I'm jealous of them. Copy and paste because my link thing isn't working...

http://www.lemondrop.com/2010/07/09/move-to-a-new-city-make-friends-BFF/

new york new york

when i clicked new york city on the north america map on astro.com, this was the result i got based on my astrological sign, time and place of birth. I think this means something!!

Jupiter/AC Line

Without any doubt, this line is one of the best and most pleasant places to stay in terms of the global horoscope. You are self-confident, enjoy the trust and faith in others and appear happy and optimistically enthusiastic. You are surrounded by an aura of confidence, freedom and loyalty.

You are generous and open-minded towards others. Your opinion shows tolerance, insight and kindness. New mental flashes abound to broaden your horizon and instill a deeply religious and spiritual belief. Overseas connections are extremely positive, and when planning or undergoing long journeys, you gain from the cosmopolitan atmosphere of these regions.

You will certainly spend a happy and relaxing time at these places. You do need to be careful though that you don't succumb to all the culinary temptations, otherwise a considerable weight gain will hardly be avoidable!

"For you? Anything!"

Flirty Meineke guy made my day ha!

black hole

I don't know if it's the weather or what's going on in my life but I'm feeling very hermit-y. I don't really feel like being social or talking to anyone but I'm trying to force it. Don't know if that's good or bad but that's what I'm doing. Talking to Jenny helped, she is so positive and such a good listener. It was nice. Man I can't wait to not have to take cold showers to stop sweating.

less communication

more thinking

plant murder

this makes me so sad! mostly because i wish i had taken a photo of it before it died at the hands of my evil officemate. also because i was actually good at keeping this little lady alive. obviously my officemate is never to be trusted again with any of my plants. hopefully lauren can make it live. i'm not getting my hopes up though...

Unaware

that I lived in Miami!! Can you see my sweat?! It has not stopped since Friday.

twitch twitch

Too.Much.Coffee.

Soooo jittery now!!!!!

Joanne

Thinking of you... stay strong, I love you.

http://ww5.komen.org/

Ariel

Isn't it ironic that I am scared of water but I want to come back in my next life as a mermaid?? I have always been so fascinated with them, I think they are absolutely gorgeous in their movements. Effortless and flawless.

There was a Brooklyn mermaid parade recently which if I was living in or around Brooklyn at the time, I would have participated...




This mermaid said it pefectly: the parade was “a rite of passage for all women, no matter what your size or shape or age. You need to get out and shake your shells.”

Next year, I'm there. And maybe I'll even get in the water.

Feeling girly

I understand how there are two sides to every story but I've always been of the mindset that if they don't do it to you, you don't have a real reason to be unkind, rude, disrespectful, mean or nonchalant to the other person slash people who side with the other person. I have just always believed that no one knows the truth you live in so they can't judge based on what one person describes. It's not fair to the whole situation, regardless of what it is. I sent an email to some friends, some who are my girlfriends and some who are Joe's friends before they were ever mine although I consider them mine as well. I just have this feeling in my gut that they won't respond to me because they are his friends first. Which I get but at the same time, treat me separately than his other half and it will still be ok. Yes, we have some problems to work out which we are doing but that doesn't mean you have to ignore me. I think I'm being too sensitive which is a first. Kind of good, kind of bad. Good because it means I have real emotions, bad because I don't like feeling them

killer bugz

I called my roommate last night to find out where she was only to discover she was still at least half an hour away while I was in full discovery mode of some crazy prehistoric million legged creature that reminded me of a more pliable cockroach (my worst enemy). I had to kill it but of course I screamed and cried because although I am a fairly strong and independent woman who has no trouble with blood or vomit, killing bugs is a different realm. This was even after my post-Sex and the City II martini too! So I killed it but may have thrown the newspaper I killed it with on the front porch and left the corpse for my lovely and wonderful roommate to dispose of. She was most gracious only because she knew how much distress I was in. Let's just say I might have been crying on the phone to her when she explained she was nowhere near home.

Sex II

I finally saw Sex and the City II last night and I was SO hesitant about seeing it because I hated the first one. But, Kate owed me a movie so I didn't have to pay which was nice so I figured it wouldn't hurt to go. Since I don't have tv I haven't really seen any previews for it, all I knew was that they went to the Middle East. That part bugged me considering NYC is such a main character throughout the six seasons. I basically went in without hope, expecting the movie to be bad.

That being said, I really enjoyed it. Even though it did take place for the most part in Abu Dhabi (??) I actually thought it seemed more true to the show than the first movie. It went back to being about the girls and their friendships rather than their individual relationships like the first movie.

I loved Liza in the beginning of the movie, I thought she was so fabulous and fun. I loved Carrie's orange dress in the desert with her butler holding the umbrella, it was so gorgeous. I haven't found a photo yet but that may have to wait until I'm on my own computer. I loved Miranda's hair when it was straight and so sleek and fiery red.

Didn't like how old they all look, how disrespectful Samantha was to the culture, I thought Carrie looked the best in terms of age. I didn't like the stupid puns: "Lawrence of my labia"; "Abu Dhabi do"; "Inter-friend-shion"; and something Carrie said to Charlotte when she was upset about the kiss although I forget what it was.

But overall I really enjoyed the movie and was glad I went! Of course after the movie Kate and I had to go get martinis which was lovely. I could go on and on about this movie but I'll stop there for a bit... and hopefully find some photos!!

Gaga ooo la la

How do you walk in these?! I love it. I want to try walking in those. I always have wondered whether the people who dress "differently" feel uncomfortale with the attention. I like the attention but I don't know if I can pull off anything crazy. I love when Diana dresses me up but sometimes I feel uncomfortable wearing stuff I don't usually wear. Too tired to finish. Long day. See shoes, I love the, just not for me.

I'll get the halibut...for the halibut

Honestly, I don't think that joke was ever funny but you wouldn't believe the number or men who think they are the first ones to invent the joke and think it's funny.

Buying homey/apartment-y things makes me feel very settled and happy. I've always been like that. I just bought something from Urban which I'm super excited for!! Meh, I can't copy the image from the webpage to be recognizable but once I get it delivered and have it set up, I'll upload a photo. But! I do have other photos to share...

My rubber plant Henry!! The very first plant I ever bought for myself, so yeah, I named it.



Koji napping



The new roommate



Rug the new roommate has claimed as his own



Got home the other night to discover that Lauren is really a 19 year old college student trapped in a 26 year old waitresses' body. Of course I have been taking advantage of it big time...

Foursquare

I want to work for Dennis Crowley, check out this article about his company Foursquare:

http://www.cnn.com/2010/TECH/innovation/06/04/foursquare.dennis.crowley/index.html?hpt=C1

Makes me excited about NYC in a totally different way. Honestly I feel like that app alone would make me switch to an Iphone...and I've been pretty against them. Although not so much anymore. It was more that I just cannot hear when I'm on the phone with Iphone people. But doesn't his company sound like so much fun?? It would be so cool. I also want that book they mention in the article, The Guide to Living Cheaply in NYC or something like that...

Dixie

Last night when I went to bed there was a SPIDER on top of the sheets. It was black and kind of looked like a crab. I freaked out a little, ran to the bathroom to grab toilet paper and tried to kill the thing. Of course I missed so I SCREAMED. I finally managed to get it and flushed it down the toilet but I know who my true friend is because she came running up the stairs to see if I was ok. Dixie!! What a sweetheart. Thumbelina was nowhere to be found. I only wish these dogs would eat the gross insects in this house. I had to kill a huge black moth last night too. Of course Dixie was rooting me on again. I need a dog. And to never ever live alone.

hello.

Nothing like starting off your day hearing 3 separate children - the youngest being 4 - yelling the f bomb as well as bitch and goddamn and asshole. Makes me so sad. BUT my day just picked up because Joe sent me a hello email! Totally changed my mood. It's been a rough day up until that point. Right after I watched the amazing Beyonce video yesterday, a Ludacris video came on. I am not a fan of his regardless, I don't think he's very talented and comes off as a poser (who uses that word anymore?!) but he had the dumbest song and video on MTV yesterday. It was called Sex Room. I cannot even believe he is considered talented and famous or hot. God I hope no one finds him attractive, he's just not. He seems like he's trying too hard. Youtube the video and tell me I'm not right.

Why Don't You Love Me

I love this video. Saw it a few days ago and forgot about it until I just found it again on MTV Jams. I love all the outfits, so feminine and sexy...maybe a bit too much for me personally but it works on Beyonce. The clip when she's in the blonde hair, short bangs, purple heels, stockings and two piece is the exact same style as Diana's bathing suit. I think her long turquoise nails when she's on the phone brings the video up to date rather than making it look completely 1950's-esque. I also like the fast moving pace of this video, and how she seems so sad and angry and happy all at once. I guess I connect to that right now. I wonder why all the songs on her Sasha Fierce album are about her being single and lonely etc when she was married when she recorded this?

After drinking a martini on Friday night and seeing Beyonce looking so fabulous drinking hers, I might try to drink those a little more often. My only problem is the spillage factor. I'm always so proud of myself and tell my tables so when I get their martinis to them without spilling a drop. It's a semi-rare occurrence. I'll probably watch this about ten more times in the next few days.

old king cole

I used to LOVE this movie when I was little!! This is one of my favorite parts, I remember when I watched this when I was little, I really liked the guy standing next to Little Bo Peep in the football shoulder pads, it just never made sense and I thought it was so cool. And Little Richard SCARED me!! If you have never seen this, you should youtube Mother Goose Rock 'N Rhyme and watch the whole thing. Lauren said she thinks when we were little our parents were all on acid. The movie is nuts and very overtly sexual which I didn't notice when I was younger. But it makes me still enjoy it as a 25 year old!

26.2

I am quite impressed with Will Meaker's marathon training. In the last two hours I have seen him drink about 5 beers and smoke 2 cigarettes. When I asked him when he started training, he said, well I'm a runner. I run about 5 or 6 miles a day, I figured a marathon couldn't be that hard. And while I expressed concern with his relaxed approach to the marathon he will run in about 30 hours, I am also impressed with his ability to brush it off as merely an extension of his usual 6 mile workout. As in, I fully believe he will finish the marathon in a respectable time, maybe even smoking a celebratory cigarette as he completes the last mile. I'm envious of those people who know what they want, and can get there without even a backwards glance. The contrast between him and my friend Maria is amazing. She has been training since possibly before Christmas, with a personal trainer. She has lost weight and is taking time to prepare. While Will, his friend Mike, Diana and I were out drinking tonight; Maria took off work at the restaurant and was probably in bed by 10:30. That sort of dedication also impresses me. What does that mean that I am impressed with dedication, hard work and motivation as well as unpreparedness and an unwavering confidence?

Also, big sidenote... I am pretty sure I have the most fun with Diana over any other person in my life. Thanks for the outfit and confidence to wear it :) Photos to follow...

Also more photos to follow of my stupid back door and it's non-glued-in-place windows that I might or might not have broken. At least none of the windows broke!

put a ring on it???

What does it mean when I have a dream about my engagement ring and wedding band? There was no actually wedding but I remember the part where I put the engagement ring on my right finger before the wedding so I could put the wedding band on my left hand during the ceremony. And then after the wedding that I don't remember, I switched the engagement ring to be on the same finger as the band. So weird, no idea why I dreamed that. Is my brain telling me something I've been pushing away for years?

Mom hug

I learned something today... a two-year old hug is almost as good as a mom hug. Especially when that two-year old has big brown eyes staring up at you through little tiny pink plastic glasses.

back on track

Today is the first day I've woken up without the pit in my stomach in quite awhile. I am in a good mood and feeling as close to happy as I have been in about a month. It's a good feeling. I think, regardless of what happens, it was good to let my emotions out. It's been a really really long time since I've done that. I wasn't even planning on it. At first after I did, I felt terrible because I didn't get the response I wanted. But I'm learning to rely on myself and know that what I did was good for me if for nothing else. And it definitely started some dialogue and *maybe* something good will come from it. I can dream. I'm trying not to get my hopes up but at least we're talking and it's unbelievable how much I have missed him. It's also unbelievable to me that so many of these posts have been about him and our relationship and me feeling sorry for myself. I'm trying to get back on track.

HBJ

xo

Time after time

This is both hilarious and scary close to being reality... I don't know how I feel about that...

Oh my god! Best line to get away from someone ever! Ahahahahahah!!!
"Would you excuse me? I cut my foot before and my shoe is filling up with blood."

The feeling's mutual

Today was not the day to get on my nerves. I don't care if you were an adorable two year old looking up at me with big blue eyes while simulaneously drinking dirty pool water and hitting the poor little defenseless baby sitting next to you. I don't care if you were the person on the other end of the phone who accidentally called the wrong number just looking for someone who looks after her middle aged brother. I don't care if you were the mostly fun but today extremely over the top annoying 5th, 6th and 7th grade lacrosse team who kept whining about how hot it was and not listening to anything either Haleigh or I said. I don't care if you were the Sheraton shuttle driver who conveniently drifted into my lane and cut me off to sit at a red light for 5 minutes while apologizing to me through your mirror. I guarantee if today was the day you met me, you would have hated me. And the feeling would have been mutual.

Oof

I feel like I've been punched in the stomach. All I've been doing is tossing and turning in my sleep for weeks. Tough conversation last night. I'm glad I did it but it's hard not getting the response I want. I guess it's a taste of my own medicine. It's not a good feeling and it makes me sick.

But Diana is right, I need to not wait around right now, I need to do something for myself. Maybe I'll take a pottery class or a dance class or something. I can do it solo. I always like having other people around to do stuff with but I think it's time to do something on my own. That will be my goal over the next few days...find something I can do by myself, for myself. Can't wait until Di's home, it can't come soon enough!

bloopies

If you are feeling low or bored...youtube news bloopers. amazing. They kill me everytime. I'll find a good video to post but it's 2am and I'm still awake. Need to try to sleep. But seriously, news bloopers. Do it.

first emotion of the day

So all my friends, meaning the two/three I talk to about my whole breakup told me not to call him. But I missed him so much I decided to. Now my brain is going crazy. It went to voicemail after 2 rings. That means he saw I was calling and hung up. Of course now I'm wondering where he is, what he's doing etc... I could go on facebook through Lauren but I've been good for about 5 days now and haven't checked it. I'm not going to start now. My rational brain is saying, maybe he's out, he knows I hate it when he picks up and I can't hear anything because it's so loud. Or maybe he doesn't want to talk to me considering I ignored the last time he called. I'm really not trying to play any game, and I am hoping that he isn't either. I think I need to do what I want to do when I feel like it. In terms of making myself happy. Because right now I'm miserable and sad and missing him so so much. I know my friends are saying it's because I was just at Denison which is obviously where we met, but not where we started dating. So I don't really have a lot of memories there of him.

Ughh, just thought maybe he was on the subway or path or something and doesn't see I called if that's what it was. Should I text him? When he used to do that to me it drove me crazy. I guess it's kind of selfish in a way. Maybe he's trying to move on and doesn't want to talk to me. That will make me so terribly sad because I am so not there yet. Not even close. I guess a part of me doesn't want to be. He's my best friend. I can't imagine being with anyone else. The thought does not appeal to me at all.

I think when we broke up at first I still had it in my head that it would be like last time and it wouldn't really be a breakup, that we would still talk. Although I knew in order to save the relationship or move past it, we needed time apart. Now I don't think it's been enough time apart yet but I have been thinking a lot, in my 10 hour solo car trip mainly but pretty much all the time, about our relationship and of course now I'm really struggling to think of the bad stuff. Yes, I know it was there. We were very far from perfect and we both know that. But thinking about how I am when I'm with him, we're good together. So all this thinking has put me in phase 2 I think. Sadness. Phase 1 was denial. And I am very good at that. I had a couple days to myself to grieve but then I was so busy I didn't have time to think about it and just felt like it would come around again. Now that it's been almost a month, I'm really starting to feel the lack of his presence. I wonder if because it was long distance at the end, it has taken me longer to really feel that void. Whatever it is, I don't like it.

It's so good to talk to Diana because we're basically in the exact same place right now, misery loves company. So true. I guess it's good and bad because since we're girls, we can analyze to the death. And I know boys don't, at least as much. Although I'm not sure about Joe. He's pretty introspective. I just want to talk to him because I miss him and I feel so bad that he didn't pick up my call. But I guess I deserve it because I didn't pick up his call even though I knew he would be drunk. I'm not drunk. Totally sober, just got off work and got home. There's definitely a difference but it's possible he's punishing me for not picking up his call two weeks ago. I know how it feels to be ignored and have no way of communicating, it's terrible and all those feelings are coming back BIG time. Like in the past 20 minutes since my call went to voicemail...

guilty pleasure

Just let it happen. I'm obsessed. Kind of like Lindsay Lohan's Rumors song and video.

bittersweet

So I just had a mostly really nice day. I was productive at work, even though I still hate my job, I felt relatively normal and happy at times, I talked to Sara who said she can road trip it out to Denison with me, I got a pedicure, I fixed a button on my jacket (trust me, that's an accomplishment), I went to drinks with some of my good girlfriends from Howard and had a great talk with my landlord. I'm so SO excited to drive out to Denison and party with my brother and Sara for a few days before graduation. Maybe it's reliving my college days which embarassingly is now 4 years ago but I'm ok with it. I'm really pumped to meet/hang out with his roommates and best friends in an environment that I feel totally comfortable in. I'm so happy I chose Denison because it was just the perfect choice for me and I made some of the best friends ever when I was there.

Although it will be slightly sad for me because I guess I always expected that Joe would be at Denison with me the next time I went out there. I assumed he would be with my family to celebrate my brother graduating 4 years after we both did. Even though we don't live in the same place and haven't for over a year, it just always seemed like a given and yet it's not. It makes me sad and want to call him because a lot of my last memories of Denison are also of Joe and the great times we had together. I guess that's partly why I'm so excited to get back, maybe reliving my college days? Although I really don't think so. More like new memories to replace old and perhaps that will help me in the grieving/getting over it/getting past it/moving on phase? I highly doubt it because I've been craving a phone call to Joe. I just know at this point it would be counterproductive, even though he has told me not to fight it. I know our paths will cross again, that I am sure of. What I am not sure of is how long it will be and how long it will take for us not being together to be the norm.

Christian the lion

I just had such a nice dinner with my parents for Mother's Day. I think it was just what everyone needed! I love my mom! She's just too cute.

Also, can we talk about how every SINGLE time I watch this video, I cry. No exceptions and I've seen it at least a dozen times.

Betty White

Got a massage yesterday which I was really looking forward to. And although it was great and wonderful because getting a massage is one of my most favorite things in the world, I couldn't turn my mind off. It's weird that the one place I went to relax is the one place I couldn't get away and turn off my own thoughts. It's been awhile since I was alone with my own mind. Lots going on in there that I didn't even know I was thinking about! Not ready to talk about it but good to know it's there and I'm not completely devoid of emotion.

Oh and also we won both our lacrosse games today! Very excited about that, even though it was SNOWING in May. SNOWING!!! Although the snow did make my hair curl quite beautifully. I'm going to take a photo because it honestly looks like I curled it on purpose. I love it. Not even going to shower.

Omg, Betty White on SNL. It's like SNL from 10 years ago. Good. I loved it. Did anyone else notice that no women from the new SNL was in the most recent episode with Betty White? Ok, besides Kristen Wiig, but she's almost grandfathered in. Otherwise, the girls should just realize they're not funny, just pretty. Of course, according to Lauren, SNL has become about pretty girls and not about funny. I tend to agree although the guys are still as unattractive as ever and are still hilarious. I guess not super unattractive, more just average looking.

dream

I woke up after having a dream that Andy from Weeds and I had just started dating. It was that brand new feeling where things are exciting and you can't stop smiling and thinking about the other person. And he was so sweet! I haven't had that feeling in so long. Is it possible to keep that feeling even if you've been with someone for a really long time? Anyway, it was a really nice dream which was exciting after not sleeping well for about two weeks now.

Bex and the City

Ok, so technically I don't live in "the city" which in my mind is and will always be New York. Although I did live in Manhattan up until a year ago, I can no longer claim it as my own. Until recently, that didn't bother me. Living in Vermont for the past year has made me really happy. I've loved living here and enjoying everything Vermont has to offer that New York doesn't. But lately I've been missing New York and I'm not sure why... Maybe I like spring in New York? Maybe I miss my New York friends? The first week where it's warm enough to drink outside on the sidewalk... where I don't have to wear a jacket outside.... This post was really not meant to be about New York at all...but I guess it's fitting considering the title of my blog. First try, we'll see how this goes...