back on track

Today is the first day I've woken up without the pit in my stomach in quite awhile. I am in a good mood and feeling as close to happy as I have been in about a month. It's a good feeling. I think, regardless of what happens, it was good to let my emotions out. It's been a really really long time since I've done that. I wasn't even planning on it. At first after I did, I felt terrible because I didn't get the response I wanted. But I'm learning to rely on myself and know that what I did was good for me if for nothing else. And it definitely started some dialogue and *maybe* something good will come from it. I can dream. I'm trying not to get my hopes up but at least we're talking and it's unbelievable how much I have missed him. It's also unbelievable to me that so many of these posts have been about him and our relationship and me feeling sorry for myself. I'm trying to get back on track.